Gaming? 4 reasons why I quit.

I have been an faithful gamer for years, from CounterStrike and Warrock though Grenado Espada (Sword of the New World), Diablo series and many others. I still play… by not so much… Why?

Why I have stated to play in the first place? (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xMrN3Rh55uM)

It was back at university.. I was in RPG club (way better mode of relaxing to be honest) and kind of got talked into trying Diablo. It was already a tad old by then – that was in 1999 or 2000. I got hooked on it due to overall stress and problems with my family that I really needed to vent but had not many options. It was cool to imagine that each of the dogs in it (the ones spitting acid or venom at you) are the person that most hurt you. From there it was a down hill.. maybe not as deep into the pit as some of my friends went (one passed out at the computer after playing for 3 days straight) but I did take it to extremes for a moment. After I graduated games were for me a way to vent the frustration resulting from numerous unsuccessful job searches. And when my son was born.. and I reached the level of tired where you can’t even sleep cause you are so exhausted (yes, there is something like that).. they helped me unplug and reset.

The only real pro I can find are the 3 good friends, whom I can count on, that are left from those years of gaming. I believe I could have met them otherwise as well. People we are meant to come across  can take us by surprise anytime and anywhere.

Games were my exile…. yet their cost.. and I’m not saying financial.. the toll they took on me and my life can’t be underestimated. I was running.. foremost from myself, from looking with clear eye at myself and my life. And I did get myself in a mess, hell I did.

Regardless of the reasons behind me gaming….now, some 15/16 years later. I can say I have unplugged myself from them. It was a conscious decision and here are the reasons:

  1. In overall scope of the day I used to spend at least 2 hours on games. After 10 year of gaming the count is simple 7300 hours = 306 days used up on something totally intangible. Imagine that I could have relaxed or unplugged with more beneficially by my second favorite pastime – book reading, or better yet needle point or developing my skills as a drifter? Where would I be by now?
  2. The involvement in games made me forget the world around me… this did take a toll on the way I look, on the way I see others and on the way I communicate with them. In some ways positive, in some quite the opposite. But it definitely made my ties with real life friends go somewhat loose. What would happen if I used at least part of those hours to actually physically socializing with those I care for?
  3. I took a deep look in the mirror. And I got shocked. I was shocked by my own thoughts on the matter, on why I actually play. I saw a person who is running away from herself, trying to avoid an honest look at her own life, at where she stood and where her path was leading. I fell into the trap of addiction (again maybe not as strong as others e.g. my own husband) but non the less and addiction. And addiction, any addiction, if not kept in check is destructive force.
  4. Then I did the math on all the money I have spent on the F2P games… believe me they are not free if you want to mean something in those virtual worlds and they ain’t cheap. The cost… well.. I could have easily gotten my dream car a few years earlier. And I am not rich by any means. I think this realization was the last nail to the coffin.

I do play now, but I keep a close check on when and how much I spend on it.. and I DO NOT SPEND anymore money on that. If I get tempted to spend more I do exercise or go for a walk; and the funds… I simply take out of my account put into my old-fashioned Piggy. After a year of keeping myself in check I have collected enough money to buy some books I wished to read for long time, to take my family for a fancy dinner and to have running subscription on Spotify (I love music, maybe they don’t have it all.. but they are better than average radio).

I decided I can use this time better, do something meaningful with it instead of living in virtual world.  So far, small steps.. but I already see much good in the decision.

I know that taking look at yourself, on why you REALLY game and facing the response is the hardest, but I strongly believe there is much to be gained. I would like to encourage those infested by the plaque to do so. We have but one life (at least that’s how much we are conscious of ) why waste it on something that will in few years leave us with almost nothing…

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5 thoughts on “Gaming? 4 reasons why I quit.

  1. I find a lot of value in playing games with good storylines. To me it is the same effect as watching a tv show or reading a book and depending on the game/book/movie may equal the same amount of time. The cost certainly is a factor however and a good reason to stick to a budget. I guess what I am saying is like any pastime hobbies you have to practice moderation but I wouldn’t go so far to call video games a plague.

    1. I second your opinion, except for the part on plague. I guess you have not encountered the amount and extend of addiction to those things as I did. I have a friend who was hospitalized due to prolonged sleep deprivation resulting from his gaming, when he came out of the hospital he immediately started playing again.. ended up going back numerous times (and at least where I live psychologists and such only recently saw this as important enough to invest time into). I have another friend who got so sucked into the MMORPGS he quit his job and is now 5th year unemployed living of his wife and she can’t seem to get his ass off the damn machine (law does not permit her to do it forcefully unless he becomes violent towards her or the kids) . I mean you might be lucky enough to have people around you who can keep in check… I see many of those around me as well… but I see also enough examples to the contrary to see it as possible plague… as for TV.. I do not watch it at all

      1. Wow that is terrible to hear. Your are certainly right I have never encountered an addiction any where close to that. That is eye-opening a bit for me, you always hear those stories about kids in gaming cafes in Korea or something but nothing like a grown adult being unable to tear themselves away. I am sorry to hear it is happening.

      2. I suppose that could be the dividing line between playing video games as a hobby, to pass the time or for enjoyment and playing to escape for reality, living in a fantasy world.

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